Now I just feel that you lied because you were unable to handle the relationship or whatever it was, will certainly not call it relationship since it was only three weeks old and would probably have not been around had we been in a different environment, but here the usage of the word is without the connotations that it generally holds , it is for want of a better word. even if you are not married the fact of the matter stays that you lied, you are not brave enough to admit that you would be unable to handle things or brave enough to give it a try and no matter what this is the relationship i dont want but presently I am having a difficult time to deal with it.